FINISHED

Well my lovely 16 year old is graduating this year. She is graduating a year early. I am SO PROUD of her but so conflictled about her being so young. She in many ways is ready and in many ways is not.

We put her in a self paced program for school and she got ahead. She is SO smart but won't admit it. Kids now a days are just different than my generation. I wouldn't want to miss my Senior Year. She would rather be done with it. We will put her in a community college next year and try to get it the same small self paced way as High School. Some just don't do well in the large classroom setting. She is one of them and once we got her where she would flourish she did. I am happy we figured it out.

She has had some ups and downs...especially the year her best friend died. It was hard to deal with. When people let you down its hard enough but this girl didn't desire to let Taylor down or leave her. I don't know which hurts worse. I have had many let downs by people who know what they are doing and still desire to hurt you. I don't understand it. Like my mom said when my dad passed, he didn't choose to leave. If he divorced her it would be different. He is not still out there to run into or contact you. He is where he should be in life once death comes.

I am so proud of Taylor for still standing. Sometimes I feel life should have knocked us all down. She has a bright future. I love her SO MUCH!

FLUFFY

I will go with the word "fluffy" instead of "fat". I have always said the word "fat" is a bad word. I hate when anyone uses that word!

I do think it is a sin to be too big. I agree with the Bible on glutony. I know I have this sin in my life and even though meds are to blame for a lot of it I know I am also. It is frustrating because you can't just STOP eating...you can stop other addictions but not this one. People don't think that this is an addiction and sometimes I don't think I am addicted to food but the wrong kinds of food. You should eat to live and not live to eat.

Proverbs 25:16
If you find honey, eat only what you need; otherwise, you'll get sick from it and vomit.

Proverbs 25:27
It is not good to eat too much honey, or to seek glory after glory.

Matthew 6:25
Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?

1 Corinthians 10:31
Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.

FERVENT

fervent: having or showing great warmth or intensity of spirit, feeling, enthusiasm, hot; burning; glowing.


Romans 12:11
Do not lack diligence; be fervent in spirit; serve the Lord.

James 5:16
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

My precious friend Tracy quoted James 5:16 to me yesterday after I said I was praying constantly. I love her! She is so enlightening! I looked up "fervent". This is how our prayers should be ...a "fervent prayer" It should be intense with enthusiasm...burning or glowing.

God doesn't want our passive prayer he wants us to talk to him with interest and passion. How can we not if we truly think about WHO HE IS? We should talk to him like the CREATOR and the one who has more PASSION about our life than we EVER will.
WHOA!

I love it!

FATIGUE

Fatigue is defined as: weariness from bodily or mental exertion.

When you feel you haven't exerted to be weary is very hard to deal with. I believe God is in charge of ALL...

Psalm 6:2
Be gracious to me, LORD, for I am weak; heal me, LORD, for my bones are shaking;

Isaiah 35:3
Strengthen the weak hands, steady the shaking knees!

Psalm 29:11
The LORD gives His people strength; the LORD blesses His people with peace.

Isaiah 40:29
He gives strength to the weary and strengthens the powerless

It is unbelievable to me how God answers every shortcoming and questions we have. He lets us know others have been through this and says HE WILL HELP!!!

Thank you precious LORD!

FIBROMYALGIA

Fibromyalgia hurts! That sums it up! Knowing you have it is confusing and frustating even when you are not in a "Fibro Fog". Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda's become your life. I should have done that yesterday when I felt better. I would have if I knew today was going to be bad. I could have done it another time. You don't want to live your life around a disease! Keeping moving doesn't work sometimes.

I am not defined by my illness. I hate that I have to work around it but when I hurt I hurt!

I am reading a book on Biblical cures. I was very encouraged to find a place that said "it is not God's plan for me to be sick" The Bible says:
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13

So knowing God doesn't want me to hurt helps. Psalm 73:26 "My body and my heart may grow weak. God, you give strength to my heart. You are everything I will ever need."

Lord, you will give perfect peace
to anyone who commits himself to be faithful to you.
That's because he trusts in you.
Isaiah 26:3

I am sure I will write more on Fibromyalgia later...